SBism™: This One's a Game Changer

I’ve never considered myself conventional.

Sure, I’ve been through similar growing pains to most of the women on this earth. But deep down, I’ve always known there was something different about me. To date, I still can’t put my finger on what makes me unique but one thing I’m certainly starting to accept; it’s special. More importantly, it’s to be celebrated.






My peace is heavily influenced by my environment so, to tackle the issue, I took some time off work, shut myself off from the world and started to rebuild my sanctum. Passing on that dress-that- makes-my ass-look-amazing-but-is-highly-age-inappropriate to the next curious teen venturing past the charity shop, rediscovering some gems in my vast book collection and taking my affirmation wall to the next level; I did it all. It’s amazing how God works though. After the 3rd day straight of assembling new drawers and bookshelves, lying on the floor sticky, sweaty and pretty flipping exhausted, the realisation hit me. I wasn’t at peace with myself because I simply stopped taking the time to appreciate just how unique I could be when I put my mind to it. The little touches brought such joy to my heart. Geeky, hopeful, strong, beautiful. A task I’d seen as a means to an end had become therapy.



Therapy, by Cambridge definition:

“a treatment that helps someone feel better, grow stronger, etc., especially after an illness”. 

But, in this day and age, who stops to consider a lack of self-care as an illness? The priorities may be different but the hustle to keep them all afloat is still the same; the feeling of failure when something drops universal. Finding the balance in life is so precarious that, try as I might, there is no surefire way I could explain to those reading this how to get the same realisation I did, and make it applicable to your o wnlife. Because we do that, don’t we? Try to apply this-one-size-fits-all solution to fixing our inner issues. Having said that, I do have one piece of advice I think everyone should take:

Your personal balance will come along with your journey and, hopefully, your own inner peace moment. I’m nearing the big 3-Oh! but I’ve learnt more about myself in the last 6 months then I have in years. I’m more proud of even the smallest achievements because I know the huge strides I’ve taken to reach there. Not for one second do I write this having turned a huge corner in fully appreciating myself. Knowing me, that moment is imminent. For now though, I’ve enjoying the new foundation I’ve laid in rediscovering who I am and how great I will be.